[閒聊] 取與捨

看板CCRomance (異國戀情)作者dreamsclouds (阿)時間17年前 (2008/11/29 22:48)推噓3(3推 0噓 2→)

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內有黑洞不喜者請按左鍵離開唷～最近遭遇到一個問題就是故鄉與現居的取捨... 我知道CCR代表的並不只是遠距離相處未來還將面臨到是否該拔根為了自己的幸福而必須暫別自己的父母家人與家鄉但不只這樣的別離而已將來更會遇到許多家人團聚的節日如農曆過年無法參與我無法想像因我缺席的空虛與孤獨感 (或許我在來英國前大部分的時間都與父母同住) 總是在爸爸回家時去為他開門給他一個kiss 總是負責與娘準備拜拜的食物與在除夕大拜拜結束後火速前往百貨公司大肆採購晚上要穿的新衣服奶奶呢？奶奶雖說平時和他男友/老伴同住但一但到我們家住時總是依賴著我只喜歡讓我幫他洗澡只願意睡前讓我幫他揉肚子(連我姑姑幫她揉她都唉唉叫) 前些日子奶奶身體很不好連進了多次急診室當時的我差點買機票衝了回去... 我知道人有生老病死但對我來說人生只有一次如果在生命的最後一刻都無法見到你最愛的人或是最思念的人那麼在闔眼的那一刻後還有什麼意義呢那未來父母呢？老了怎麼辦？雖說還有我弟弟在但我還是他們女兒呀我很幸運我父母在我小時候曾全家在英國住2年所以這裡的一切他們算熟悉語言通順更加幸運的是我父母剛分別拿到英國10年與5年簽可常來但這些都不是重點呀.. 這中間的旅費高就不說了長途跋涉只為了見女兒一面讓我覺得我好不孝.... 眼見父母一天天蒼老我爸的頭髮都快白光了.. 有時候想想那些在自己故鄉CCR的人真的好幸運一切幸福都在自己身上有自己心愛的人的陪伴與故鄉與家人的溫暖但也讓我更佩服那些現在在異地CCR的人/前輩們你們好堅強! 總以為自己是非常獨立的不會很想念家人的且又是在這個熟悉到算是自己的第二個故鄉的地方和自己心愛的人在一起然而在某些時刻總是特別的想家... 像是聽到這首歌後... 眼淚無法停止.... 我... 好想家..... http://tw.youtube.com/watch?v=c089kEIWJLc Artist : Westlife Song : Home Lyrics : Another sunny day, Has come and gone away, In Paris and Rome, I want to go home, Mmmmmm Maybe surrounded by, A million people I, Still feel all alone, I just want to go home, Oh I miss you, You know, And i've been keeping all the letters, That I wrote to you, Each one a line or to, I'm fine baby how are you, Well I would send them but, I know it's that it's just not enough, The words were cold and flat, And you deserve more, Than that, Another aeroplane, Another sunny place, I'm lucky, I know, But I want to go home, I've got to go home, Let me go home I'm just to far, From where you are, I've got to come home, Let me come home, I've had my run, Baby i'm down, I want to come home, And I feel just like, I'm living, Someone elses life, It's like i just stepped outside, When everything was going right, And I no just why you could not come along with me, 'Cause this was not your dream, But you always believed in me, Another winter day, Has come and gone away, In either Paris and Rome, And I Want To Go Home, I miss you, You know, Let me go home, I've had my run, Baby i'm down, I want to go home, Let me go home, It'll all be alright, I'll be home tonight, I'm coming back home. -- ※ 發信站: 批踢踢實業坊(ptt.cc) ◆ From: 92.41.139.155 ※ 編輯: dreamsclouds 來自: 92.41.139.155 (11/29 22:51)