[閒聊] 水瓶座女生的療傷日記02. i wanted u

看板Aquarius (水瓶座(1/20-2/18))作者cleverme (cleverme)時間15年前 (2010/05/12 17:51)推噓7(7推 0噓 2→)

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三個月，我戒掉一個壞習慣。關於那些我不能接受的事情，我還是覺得噁心，可是我不嘔吐了。因為這世界，很明顯價值觀跟我很不同的世界，也接受我的存在。所以算是一種禮尚往來，或是兼容並蓄吧。誰都不要覺得誰對或不對，因為快樂無罪。可是我有罪。應該是有吧。不然現在不會無緣無故被判了無期徒刑。陳欣怡是兩年，梁慕橙是六年。我不敢聽我的判決。用力的在心口上開一槍，很有種但我害怕。無期徒刑是種慢性自殺，還帶著美麗幻想。我曾經很想很想一走了之，用這種方式珍藏我的唯一，很美。我現在發現原來活著更難，用這種方式見證我的唯一，很痛。 drug-free-alcohol-free-suicude-free-dream-free-pain-free?- 我是思想犯。我相信幸福，相信永遠，相信純真，相信唯一，相信愛。輕者判真心到處流浪，停在一個又一個不同的人或床上。重者判悲傷永無止境，一輩子守著ㄧ個不會實現的夢想。可以給我ㄧ顆毒蘋果，也不要輕判我羞辱我。這是我唯一的辯白。 i wanted u ( Ina) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gj1HcughPSg

Lately I've been thinking 'bout wat i can do I've been stressing to fall back in love with you I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through But I can't go on this way I've got to stop it babe You've been wonderful in all that you can be But it hurts when you say that you understand me So believe me I, I am sorry I.. I am sorry I, I 最近我在想，還有什麼可以做的嗎而那件事，我到現在仍不去想做對做錯。因為想了就痛，想了好痛好痛。我很抱歉，我是先放棄的那個人。可是我真的無法忍受我看到的事情。所以很抱歉，我是先勇敢的那個人。你已經盡你所能對我好，只是偽裝被戳破的時候，抱歉我的勇氣還沒準備好。相信我，我真的也很抱歉為什麼這一切會變這樣，虛偽跟真實真的有必要拿自己的幸福去當籌碼嗎？ I wanted you to be there when I fall I wanted you to see me through it all I wanted you to be the one I love I wanted you, I wanted you I wanted you to hold me in my sleep I wanted you to show me what I need I wanted you to know just how down deep I wanted you, I wanted you 這是我曾經相信的: 我墜落，你會接住我，不讓我墮落。人海裡，你會第一眼就找到我。我的世界，你是我的唯一。睡覺時，總是緊緊相擁。我需要你，你總在我身邊。因你才有的失落，原來是世上最可怕的事情，我是多麼在乎你。 I've been pushing hard to open up the door Trying to take us back to where we were before But I'm done I just can't do this anymore Cause we can't be mended So let's stop pretending now We've been walking round in circles for some time And I think we should head for the finish line So believe me I, I am sorry I.. I am sorry I, I 而推開真實大門的那一刻，多麼艱難。我也曾試著要讓我們回到原本的生活。我真的試了，可是真的做不到.. 因為我們都有自己的原則。所以不要再偽裝了，沒有這個必要。不用再在不夠誠實的愛裡走不出來。所以我在眼前拉了一條終點線，我真的想讓這荒謬的一切快點結束。 I wanted you to be there when I fall I wanted you to see me through it all I wanted you to be the one I love I wanted you, I wanted you I wanted you to hold me in my sleep I wanted you to show me what I need I wanted you to know just how down deep I wanted you, I wanted you, yeah 因為我曾經是這麼相信你。相信你會是我最堅強的依靠。相信你只把我放在你的眼裡。相信你就是我一直找的唯一。因為我們曾經是這麼貼近。睡著醒來發現你的手不曾離開我。當我缺少什麼你總是滿足我需求。情緒唯一會被擾亂的原因只有你。曾經這麼相愛的過去... I, I I'm so sorry baby but I, I I've got to pack up and leave but I, I'll always remember how we came close to be And what I wanted to be I wanted you baby Oooooh Yeahh I wanted you I wanted, I wanted you 我該向誰懺悔這一切？我是不是只能整理殘落的心，然後逼自己離開？可是記憶中的我們我甩不開，每天每天回想著... 我真的好想回到有我們的日子， honey... I wanted you to be there when I fall (I wanted you to be there, yeahhh) I wanted you to see me through it all I wanted you to be the one I love (Ooh ooh) I wanted you, I wanted you (I wanted you oh) I wanted you to hold me in my sleep I wanted you to show me what I need (I wanted you to know me just how down deep yeah) I wanted you to know just how down deep (I wanted you to know just how) I wanted you, I wanted you I wanted you I.. I wanted you, I wanted you I wanted u and i still do... I wanted u but i still can't do... 可是眼淚擦擦，想到那些傷害，我站在這裡，不知道該向左轉，還是向下一站走。天亮了，天黑了。這一刻笑著，下一刻又不笑了。 Circle of sorrow will kill a cat. -- ※ 發信站: 批踢踢實業坊(ptt.cc) ◆ From: 114.137.94.157